Wednesday, June 29, 2022

Personal Reflection 8

I was ordained by God to write before 5 AM, as at 5 AM I shall pray the Rosary. The demonic attacks are indeed powerful. They seduce me into the heretical ideas of the New Age, and I have a feeling that PH might be related to that. Yet God ordains me to do PH once the time is right, that is once I can discipline myself on the Rosary. At the same time, I feel that there might be a truth hidden by God, for our sake. Yet my soul screams, "For sure there has to be a way to reconcile the 2 ideas, the 2 truths."

Yet what if one of them is false and the other is true. And what if I stand on the wrong side of history? Then I would be condemned sure and through. And I again attest that I have no way of knowing that I am wrong. But all I need is faith and love for God, and a great hope for the return of Jesus Christ, not just Christ, but Jesus Christ. I shall ask my aunt about the things I have seen. Now it is clear to me that what they call the Great Solar Flash, I call the Illumination of Conscience. It seems satan is again mixing error with truth and deceiving many. Yet how much are deceived and how much are on the right path? We cannot judge for we do not even know the minds of men so how can we know their hearts? Only God can judge.

If the prophecies are correct, then in just a short time (relatively speaking) all men shall know that Jesus is Christ and God. There will be mass confusion and chaos, and I am sure there will be lies spread amongst men to protect their false beliefs. Those who are faithful to God will attest to what they have seen, the crucified Lord. Now that I understand that faith, hope, and love are all that is necessary, then is it still necessary to ask my aunt? Yet perhaps I can know a different perspective if I know what my aunt thinks about all of this.

I trust in Christ our Lord, that He shall protect me from all heresies. But the question has been gnawing at me since forever. Just, what if there are truths other than what the Church teaches? If there is, what does this all mean?

5.22

I prayed, I prayed before I wrote. If this is what led me to this, then I can truly trust only in God now. I feel terrible, as if a terrible cloud of evil has descended upon me. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

Personal Reflection 7

Who am I?

A realization, by the grace of God, came upon me last night until now. This realization is on the question of "Who am I?". I came to the point that I am not the Ignas of yesterday, nor am I the Ignas of the future. However, the point lies with my relationship to the person of the past. The keyword is inheritance. In my past thoughts, I have made the point that each person is different between one point of time and the other. In fact, I now and the I just a minute ago, or even at the beginning of this paragraph are 2 different souls and people. 

However, we inherit from our past a certain reality. This reality is not necessarily our reality until we choose to do something about that reality. We may choose to accept the inheritance or we may choose to reject it and make a new path. This we must understand to have proper meaning and purpose in our lives. For without this inheritance, we have no connection to ourselves, and we are forever a new being. 

For this realization I understand that the person who made the decision to be committed to and serve God forever is not me. I was that person, but I am not that person, in relationship to our temporal differences and separation. However, I inherit the reality of being in relationship with God, a specific relationship. As such, I must always make a new decision in front of God. I must always renew that choice, that will of love, every moment of my life.

This decision of love is of course a purely selfless decision, because we do not gain the rewards today or now. In fact, relative to the present, we will never see the effects of our love. Instead it is someone else, who inherits our realities and investments in the future, and our identity that shall feel the effect of our love. It is in this understanding that I see how love is totally selfless, that the final selfishness of love is broken down and destroyed. For even in self-love, it is selfless.

The Meaning of my Name

My name is Ignas Christianto Galih Prasetyo, in this writing I wish to explain the meaning of my name. My name is composed of 4 words, with each having a distinct meaning yet comprising of the foundation of my identity. The name "Ignas" comes from an Indonesian philosopher, sociologist, and anthropologist named Ignas Kleden. However, I interpret it as also coming from the Saint Ignatius of Loyola, and also from the Latin word "Ignis" which means fire. Fire here can mean the fiery aspect of my personality and also the fire of the Holy Spirit which dwells in me.

Christianto simply means Christian, a follower of Christ. However, what it means to be a follower of Christ for me is not simply to follow Christ as an action, but to be the follower of Christ, to be the Christian. It is not merely a part of my identity rather it is my sole identity, the only true identity I can have. The fullness of being a Christian is to be integrated to His Church, the Catholic Church, which He found on this earth before He ascended to heaven. It is to submit to the Church as a means of following Christ, and to do whatever Christ asks of us in the past and in the present.

Galih is a Javanese word meaning strength. In truth I am weak apart from Christ, but through Christ I can do all things and thus I am given strength by God. So this part of me, that is strength should not be considered a part of my natural self, for in my natural self I have nothing. Instead it should remind people of God and His strength, which He gives to us freely for the sake of our salvation. 

Prasetyo is another Javanese word which means "loyal oath" or "oath of loyalty". This  symbolizes that I am an oath of loyalty towards God and Christ His beloved Son. Indeed, to be a Christian is so make an oath of loyalty towards Christ. So in fact this last name of mine is related to my identity as a Christian. However, God reveals to me a unique symbolism behind my entire name, which I shall disclose in the following paragraph.

The path towards God is said to happen in the following sequence, we are first introduced to the Holy Spirit often symbolized by fire (Ignas), then the Holy Spirit leads us to Christ making us Christian (Christianto), and finally Christ leads us to the Father which is often appropriated as power or strength (Galih). The final definition of myself is Prasetyo, the oath of loyalty towards the Triune God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Thus my identity is truly Christian, for I am meant to be a Christian, apart from the world and separate from the world.

My Birth

I was born on Saturday, 6th of September, 2003 from my mother and father. I do not know if the dates have significance, I once tried to investigate the meaning, concerning the numbers' relationship to the Trinity, but God has since told me that birth dates are not that significant. Thus I no longer think of it other than as the history of my thought and mind. The date of the publication of this post is written in my blog so one can approximate my age of this post as around 18 years old.

The Autobiography

Several years ago, in 2019, when I was 15 years old, I wrote a massive autobiography detailing the first 15 years of my life, which amounted to 388 pages. However, 3 years have passed since that time, and many more things have happened then. For the first 15 years have been recorded well, I believe I need only record now the next 3 years, from 2019 until 2022. There is great prophetic significance to these years, as they mark the end of the beginning, and the beginning of the end of all things. This single writing will serve as a continuation to my autobiography.

The Continued Autobiography

Let us begin with a reflection, that there is possibly a contradiction between my thoughts and my feelings. That I feel the meaninglessness of chronicling this old part of my self, for it is shameful and also dark and depressing. Yet I recognize in my thoughts that I should not act out of feeling but out of faith, which means out of God's Will. Yet it is also an understanding that my feelings once discerned are also indicative of the Will of God. 

And that Will is for me to write about this past according to my memory as God reveals it to me. So now I shall write down some revealed memories and then elaborate upon them later on. The biographical writing with (hidden), the despair incident of presentation, the victory of idea in World History, the mistake of speech in THM session, the mistake of the Rosary, the trip to Bandung. This is what was revealed to me just now in my memory, now I shall commence writing on what happened as a generality from the end of the autobiography until today.

In the end of the autobiography, I was still in the middle of the delusion that I am Christ. Of course, all Christians are part of the body of Christ, but none of us are Christ proper, instead we are merely Christians, followers of Christ. We and Christ are indeed echad, but not the same. It is just as the Trinity is united yet distinct and separate in logical existence. Now while a source not yet verified by God or by the Church claims I was Christ, that is no longer meaningful, it is now insignificant. As the attempt to equate oneself with Christ is a Luciferian seduction and temptation, the desire to become God Himself, in fact, it is essentially antichrist.

There was a period of time undocumented and not remembered after that. It is only remembered that there was occassional moments of despair in the time period of 2019. Then as 2019 progresses, so did despair, and thus we enter the saga of 2020. In the beginning of 2020 my despair climaxed and I attempted to quit school only to be defeated mentally by the school forces, and I continued school and also was enrolled to a psychiatrist. Then covid hit. 

In the later part of 2020, the despair came back, and I remembered that there began my eschatological interest. Then there is also the resurgence of the delusion, which continued into 2021. In 2021, the delusion reached its climax with a seemingly demonic infusion into my soul. For I obtained what seemed like gifts of the Holy Spirit, but knowing the basis of those gifts, I know now that it is all demonic and of the spirit of the antichrist. 

The delusion ended by God's Will and command in the Holy Week. There I was thrown into an emptiness of being where I was disconnected from God. Then I attempted to enter the seminary and there the devil made his final attempt to destroy me, that is by leading me into suicide. However, God has a great plan for me, and for that reason He saved me knowing full well that I will continue to be an obedient child of Him.

In the evening of 2021, I was introduced to programming, pranic healing, and objectless meditation. All of that were necessary stepping stones to introduce me back into Christ in the proper manner as His child and future bride. And so in the beginning of 2022 until now I had a proper resurrection of the faith. I have been dead in my demonic deception, but Christ the Good Lord revived me and brought me back to life. 

In my new life of faith, I had 3 periods, the first period was the fertile period, followed by a dry period, and now I have a new fertile period. Now, whatever happened in these periods are not that important, other than to remind me of God's love. In the first period I was introduced to the Christian mission of evangelization and the struggle for the Church. In the second period I was introduced to free will, to the freedom of the soul in Christ, the freedom from sin and the freedom to serve God. In the third period I begin to do my task of serving God and His Will forever and ever. That is all.

The Purpose of my Life and all Lives

This has been revealed to me in the first fertile period of my faith, but it is now renewed. The purpose of my life and all lives is to serve God and enjoy God forever, and that is fulfilled only in the Christian life in the Catholic Church. For all souls not aware of Christ yet or not a Christian in the proper Church yet, then their task is to get into the Church and become a true Christian. For all Christian souls, this is their task as I understand it.

The abstract task is to love God with all of our heart, our soul, our mind, and our strength and to love one another as we love ourselves. The concrete task is to manifest this love in worship, as love for God, and in the works of mercy or works of love, as love for the neighbor. However, the greatest of these works as God revealed them to me, that is the particular Christian task is to "Preach the Gospel" and "Struggle for the Church". This is known through divine revelation and natural reason of the material God has given to us.

If the highest good is love which is God in perfection thereof, then it means that the highest work of mercy is to lead people into that perfect love which is God. This is the meaning of preaching the Gospel, it means to reveal the One True God to those still recognizing Him in shadows. Then to struggle for the Church means to preach continously to those already in the faith to strengthen their faith and their love. 

So the works of mercy, be it corporal or spiritual are good in of themselves. However, the best work of mercy, as God reveals to me, is to turn other people into ourselves, or more accurately, to turn other people into fellow images of God as we are images of God. Converting others to be lovers is the greatest act of love one can do to another. Thus is my purpose in my entire life, not to simply do good, but make others do good as well. 

The Current Manifestation of that Christian Purpose

I am ordained by God to currently study Him in metaphysics, and also pray as much as I can, primarily the Rosary. This is the current purpose, which I believe is not the final form, but simply the preparation of my soul for my further purposes in my life. I long for when I actually do the highest good as God reveals to me. There I will truly be what I am supposed to be as God has ordained me and designed me in His divine providence.

Monday, June 27, 2022

Personal Reflection 6

The Fundamental Facts

I know that my existence and essence is a grace of God. That the world, the sun and the moon and the stars, the multitude of people and nations, my friends, my family, my material comforts and wealth and possessions, these are all the graces of God. If I am to ever falter in faith, then I must look back to the fundamental fact that all I have is evidence of God's existence, the supremely good Being. Yet I still have some troubles and doubts in my mind. Must I engage with them or must I throw away those thoughts?

The Simple or the Complex

Do I overcomplicate things by overthinking my relationship to God? Ah in the end it is always a matter of faith. Yet this understanding, this realization, is in of itself a grace of God. I feel that God likes to illuminate my conscience by pointing out the various errors of my ways, for the sake that I may correct them. And in writing this, I can feel the burdens being lifted away from me. I now understand that I just have to trust in God in all things, to foremost trust in Christ. For He loves me and He is the one who chose me, not I chose Him. 

Being simple does not mean being shallow, sometimes being complex is actually shallow. I wish to penetrate and contemplate the depths of God, and I believe that only by a simple faith in Him, will I be able to achieve that depth, and of course that is all by the grace of God. Then I need not overcomplicate my faith and thoughts by unnecessary thoughts unordained by God. My troubles are finished.

Friday, June 24, 2022

Personal Reflection 5: The Old and the New

Part 1

God is ancient, insofar He is "before" everything in this world. As such, we must preserve the ancients, insofar it comes from God. With that in mind, every effort or attempt to chase the new and destroy the old indiscriminately must be treated with suspicion. However, we as a world evolve and change continously, including our language. The materials of comprehension, that is the Word of God does not change, but our understanding of it does change, from the worse to the better, that is our hopes and what God intends as well.

For that reason, we produce new material to reflect our new understanding of ancient material, that is God, and to convert that ancient material into modern language. This is what I have experienced myself, when reading "An Introduction to the Metaphysics of St. Thomas Aquinas". I feel that we are not called to constantly make new understandings, but rather perfect our understanding of the material. Perfection does not always mean new, it can mean returning to tradition and rejecting what is new. For it is possible that the novel comes from satan.

Part 2

"Oldness" and "newness" are relative concepts, they have both objective and subjective meanings. Objectively old things have been there before us, and objectively new things have only been here in the present. However, subjectively old things are things which we as an individual have encountered for quite some time in our particular history, while the subjectively new are things which might be objectively old but we have only encountered in the relative present. 

My point is that in our journey towards God, we may encounter things which are subjectively new to us, and this is a necessity. However, we must not let novelty and newness be the principle of our lives. Only God is the principle of our lives. We seek things new insofar they make us closer to God, and reject the old insofar they are of sin and the old ways. Scripture proclaims this a lot, that in the journey of God, the old is generally against God while the new is generally for God.

Yet at the same time, there are men and women holier than us which have preceeded us. With them, there are material objectively old which contains great wisdom and understanding given for us to make an example out of. For one, the Word of God has preceeded us by more or less 2000 years. In response to the objectively old and sacred, we must protect them, preserve them, and live by them, by the law of faith, that it may help us grow in holiness.

As such, things objectively old and new may be good as long as they relate to God. However, the world is unstable and tends to extremes, not knowing that in God, it is general that the middle path is what is pleasing to God. The world relishes in novelties and thinks that "progress" is the absolute rule of life, that we must constantly change. That is of course a false rule and path which will only turn people away from God and into their damnation. 

This is observable and demonstrable from the course of history, and it seems the world is about to enter a cycle of false progress. Where people "feel" dissatisfied with what God has revealed and instead pursue false perfections. The rational sense towards God has seemingly been lost, where instead of resting in God, people are tempted into an eternal restlessness chasing an impossible dream. Indeed, what God has declared to be possible, that is rest in Him, the participation in divine nature, has been declared to be impossible by man. 


Chapter 1 of An Introduction to the Metaphysics of St. Thomas Aquinas

This is my response to the first chapter of the book, "An Introduction to the Metaphysics of St. Thomas Aquinas". As usual, my response is an interpretation, elaboration, or addition to the book's content. The summary above has contained an interpretation of the book, but the response will involve my own thoughts as well. However, in this response I will comment as well on my current understanding of my own intellectual processes.

Before the actual response, I wish to write of my recent philosophical failures. In the past I was able to write many philosophical writings, long and I dare say with some wisdom, though not much. However, in the recent times of my life, I somehow lost that capacity. That loss is not due to my loss of intellectual capacity, but my attachment to God and the purity of God's Being.

First of all, we cannot understand God divorced from the natural or created order. For every single knowledge we have of Him is based on experience data of the created order. So my inner choices to abandon world totally led to this fall. As I become more and more concerned with pure being, I became less and less able to comprehend that pure being, which is God. It is thus a great lesson of detachment that God has taught me, but it was also about humility.

Scripture has clearly taught that faith in God comes from the visible things. In other words, God intends us to honor Him by honoring creation. For as Christ said, what we do for the least of us, we do for Him as well. However, my hatred of the world, as in genuine repulsion and rejection, has corrupted my faith. That is until God renewed it for me, and so I become enlightened of my corrupt old ways, and I chose to renew myself, a greater way of humility and detachment and of course, service of God.

The way God taught me these things is first by directing me to write about Scripture and the Catechism. These writings then I understand to be about studying, as humility grows. Then I obtained this book, which became a sign that God doesn't really want me to leave philosophy, but to restore it and write of it in the correct way, that is inspired by Him and by the created order, including words of the saints. It was my folly and pride to think that I can write with my own thoughts, without being inspired by God or others. 

With that out of the way, let us begin with my proper response. There is a fascinating concept which I have never encountered before, that is habitus. The term is used a lot in this chapter, for that reason I shall explain what it is first. Habitus is a stable perfection relating to the free, spiritual soul and necessary in order to raise it to a higher level or to dispose it for and to facilitate operations chiefly of a rational free nature, or those under reason's control or command. This is a long sentence so let me unpack it.

First, it is a stable perfection, or goodness. Stability is how it is similar to habit, as in being a repetitiveness, both has stability. However, not all habits are good, while habitus is precisely a perfection, a goodness. Second, it is related to the free, spiritual soul. Free here I suspect to mean both in will and spiritually, that is free from the bondage of sin which can be habitual, thus the difference. Spiritual means the soul aimed at God, though it might simply refer to the fact that soul is spirit.

Third, it is necessary to raise it to a higher level, which considering Aquinas' philosophy, to a higher level of spirituality with God. Fourth, or to facilitate operations chiefly of a rational free nature or those under reason's control or command. This means it aids in operations of a rational nature, and again free of sin. By rational it does not simply mean to follow logical laws, but to be ordered towards happiness according to the real laws of happiness.

With that out of the way, we can continue. Now I shall not comment on the objections as greater knowledge is obtained from examining the answers. The first section of the first chapter concerns itself with the division of the speculative sciences into these divisions, natural science, mathematical science, and divine science. The objections by nature object to these divisions with various reasons that shall be answered later by Aquinas.

What is a speculative science? Speculative science is the science which has its end or purpose the knowledge of that science. This is opposed to operative sciences which are sciences directed not simply towards knowledge, but primarily to an action or operation. This division existed in the time of Aquinas, but I propose that with a wider understanding of the nature of science, the division might be blurred.

The blurring consists not in the contraction of operative sciences into speculative science but the expansion of speculative science into operative science. For all knowledge is directed to action. However, this may be debated with the idea that all action is directed to knowledge, in our Christian case, the knowledge of God. Let us compare this with the Christian and perhaps if God permits, a secular case.

The Christian faith teaches that salvation is by both faith and works. Faith is a speculative matter which leads to works, an operative matter. However, the primary object here is faith, the speculation, and the final goal of human life is the knowledge of God, again, a speculation (or theory in our terms). Of course not everyone is Christian so let us examine a more general case, with our good old friend the experience.

Knowledge is memory, and memory is recreational or recollective experience. Therefore, great knowledge is great experience. In a certain sense, everyone seeks the knowledge of experiences, and that is the aim of action. Action is all directed towards happiness, the experience of it, the knowledge of it, and thus the vision of happiness. For that reason, the end of man is theoretical or speculative, not practical. For it is only knowledge which ends and is eternal, action or events are fleeting and passing, they cannot be reliable sources of happiness.

The general answer, "On the contrary"  to the objections is that both Aristotle and Ptolemy in their works have used the same division as Aquinas proposes though not in the same order. This order will be significant. Now, it is said that the object of science must be congruent with its end. For example, physics aims to know about physical motion, then its object is physical motion. In the case of speculative science in general, as the end is truth or knowledge, then the object must be the truth of a particular thing or a general thing.

Now, the habitus and powers are distinguished by their objects, but not by any kind of differences, instead only the essential differences. What does this mean? The opposite of essence is accident, it is highly related to the concept of necessity and contingency. Essential difference is a difference which divides the essence of objects as objects. Let us take the example Aquinas provides us, the difference between sound and color. Sound and color are as objects essentially different, they are different kinds of objects. Accidental difference is a difference which divides the accident of objects, this means it does not necessarily mean that the objects are different by their essence, but only in accident. The essence is commonly the true, pure, reduced, or simple form of the object. As a sensible object, an animal or a plant, the fact thereof is an accident. Because what the sense truly receives in essence is things such as color and sound, which has an essential difference. What this paragraph first states is that the habitus are divided by essential differences. Thus the speculative science must be divided likewise, for science is a habitus in of itself.

Then there is the requirement or criteria of what a speculable entity, meaning an object of speculation, must fulfill to be a speculable entity, basically its essence. Based on the intellective power, or just intellect, the object must be immaterial as the intellect is, and based on the habitus of science, the object must be necessary as science is about necessary things. The intellect is not a habitus, because the intellect is the thing perfected by the habitus, one of them is science. Then the description continues that the necessary thing is immobile, for a mobile thing is contingent as it can be or not be, while necessary things must be. Mobility here may refer to actual physical motion, or change in general. Therefore, separation from motion and matter is essential to the speculable entity.

There are things dependent on matter for existence and knowledge, such as man. Then there are things dependent on matter for existence but not for knowledge, such as lines and numbers. Finally there are things independent of matter totally, either because they are wholly immaterial or because they appear inconsistently in matter. The first category includes God and the angels, while the second includes substance, quality, being, potency, act, one and many, and things of this sort. The science which treats the independent from matter has 3 names, theology, metaphysics, and first philosophy. It is theology insofar its pre-eminent object is God. It is metaphysics insofar it is studied after physics. And it is first philosophy insofar all other sciences depend on this science for their principles.

It is noted that there is no category of objects which are dependent on matter for their knowledge but not for their being. What does it mean for something to depend on matter for our knowledge of them? It means that we need matter to know or have an idea about them. The idea itself contains matter. However, if this is true, then it means the object is necessarily made out of matter, as the idea of the object contains matter. For an object to be immaterial in being but depend on matter for knowledge is like a balloon containing water without the water ever being put inside the balloon in the first place. In other words, it is a contradiction, for that reason the threefold division is exhaustive.

I have rewritten the summary, or more precisely my understanding and some elaborations of the first section. However, I believe that I can do more by comparing these ideas with the modern world, or at least my understanding of the current age. Habitus is a new concept to me, but I believe it is comparable to virtue. However, simply knowing its nature is insufficient, one must also know the concrete or particular forms of the thing. Until then I cannot explain much about the habitus.

From my philosophical mind, the reasoning and explanations of Aquinas are beautiful, in the sense that they are organized, rigorous, and rational. All in all I don't see much faults with his reasoning. The threefold division of speculative sciences seems adequate even until now and the definitions hold up even today. However, of course natural science would have bloated, with mathematics expanding a great much but mostly staying the same, and metaphysics expanding a great deal as well. Most of what we call philosophy today is technically all metaphysics.

However, I am not so sure how some branches of philosophy may be called metaphysics. For example, social philosophy seems to be a blending of natural science and divine science? Though the category can be examined by examining the subject-matter. Society is foremost a material thing which depends on matter for both its understanding and its existence. So it should go under natural science. It cannot be divine science because society is neither divine nor angelic, and it is consistently material. 

Though how are we discussing society? If we are discussing society proper as a group of humans, then yes it is a natural science. If we are discussing God's relationship to society, then it would be divine science insofar it involves God. Now metaphysics seems to be expandable to the whole science of the immaterial, that is the soul or spirit. For that reason theology currently studies much about man insofar it studies man's relation to God. So this science as theology would pretty much study everything insofar they are related to God or point us to God somehow.

Answer to the first objection. It is explained that Aristotle was using the term habitus to mean virtue, or intellectual virtues. There is the habitus of understanding which means self-evident principles, science which means demonstration through lower causes, and wisdom which means demonstration through highest causes. Aquinas then immediately cuts to the statement that sciences as habitus must be differentiated by their objects, so I assume because the habitus is meant as a virtue, then we ought to divide not by their nature as a virtue, but simply by the object they treat.

Logic is not a science but an instrument of science. For speculative science treat of those things the knowledge of which is sought for its own sake. Logic however is studied for the aid of other sciences. For this reason logic is not a principal part but reduced to speculative philosophy inasmuch as it provides speculation with its instruments.

The liberal arts are classed with speculative science because that's what students of philosophy are instructed with before actually studying philosophy, natural or rational. It is essentially the education of the method of science before the science itself. The term "arts" do not necessarily correlate with aesthetic work, but more of to a science which leads to any kind of making, rational or actual. For that reason the 7 liberal arts, being operative, cannot be considered speculative sciences. In the case of moral science, it is not an act of science but of virtue, so it is not an art, instead the virtue is the art.

Sciences are divided again by their ends in the speculative and operative division. However, when medicine is said to be divided, it is based on the proximity or remoteness to the operation of the things of medical science. Healing methods would be operative, and principles be speculative. Therefore calling a part of operative science speculative does not make it a speculative science.

Some sciences are part of other sciences not by being an actual part, but instead by subalternation. That is their principles are explained by the higher science. Medicine is not part of physics but it is subalternated to physics. Therefore, the whole of physics is still speculative, regardless if there are operative sciences subalternated to it.

The subjects of the sciences are part of being, but they do not necessarily discuss being as being as metaphysics do. Each particular science studies a part of being under a special intelligible aspect, this may be translated as particular aspect of sense, distinct from that in which being is contemplated in metaphysics. Therefore these sciences are not part of metaphysics.

All sciences contribute to the whole development of divine science. However, there is no vicious cycle, instead divine science has their principles proven by other self-evident principles. As such there is a linear progression of principles from the most self-evident principles to the lowest principles derived from many chains of demonstration. In any case, natural science is at first more accessible, but after going through it we arrive at divine science from which we obtain the principles necessary for natural science, that is the explanatory cause.

The next section concerns with the nature and excellence of metaphysics. First, when some things are ordered to a single thing. One of those things must be the regulator, while the others regulated. For example, the soul commands and the body obeys, or reason commands anger and desire. As for the sciences, all of the sciences and arts are ordained towards one thing, the perfection of man, which is his beatitude. Therefore one of those sciences must be a mistress of all the others which rightly lays claim to the title of wisdom. For it is the office of the wise to order others.

We can know the nature of this science by carefully considering how a person is qualified to rule, that is by the intellect. Therefore, the science that is to lead is the most intellectual science (highest degree intellectual). This science, however, is the one that treats of the most intelligible things. The most intelligible things mean the most comprehensible by the mind, but not the senses.

This we can regard first from the order of knowing, for those things which are the source of intellect's certitude seems to be the more intelligible ones. Thus, since it is from causes that the intellect achieves the certitude of science, the cognition of causes apparently is in the highest degree intellectual. Consequently that science which considers first causes evidently is regulative of the other sciences. This paragraph is indeed a bit difficult, but a key is that the most intelligible things is indeed causes. The more a thing is a cause, the more it is intelligible, this is how I understand it. Or, the causes of certitude, or source, are the more intelligible ones.

Second, the supremely intelligible objects can be considered from examining intellect's relation to sense knowledge. Sense knowledge is particular, while the intellect considers universals. Thus, the science which is maximally intellectual is the one which treats of principles supremely universal. Such principles however ought not to remain completely unspecified (unknown or as mere generality). Since without them full cognition of things proper to the particulars cannot be had. Now since every particular needs these principles, it follows that it cannot be treated in any one particular science but in a common science.

Third, the supremely intelligible objects can be considered from the standpoint of intellect's own cognition. Thus, since every thing (which is part of the supremely intelligible objects) has intellective power in consequence of its freedom from matter, those things must be pre-eminently intelligible which exist in complete separation from matter. The object and the intellect must be proportioned to each other, and must be of one genus, since the intellect and the intelligible are in act one (in actuality they are one). Now, those things are in the highest degree separated from matter which abstract not only from signate matter, but which abstract altogether from sensible matter not only according to reason but in actual existence as is God an the intelligences. Therefore, the science that considers these things is supremely intellectual and the chief or mistress of the others.

The foregoing threefold consideration (which may be summarized as first cause, universal principles, and immaterials) belongs by right to only one science. For the separated substances referred to above are the universal and the first causes of actual being. But it pertains to that one science to consider the proper causes of a genus and the genus itself. Therefore the science must study not only those substances but also common being, which is the genus of which these substances are the common and universal causes.

Although this science treats of the 3 things, God, intelligences, and common being, its only subject is common being. The subject of a science (referring to any science) is what the causes and passions of which we seek to know, but not the causes themselves. It is the knowledge of the causes of a genus which is the end of scientific thought. Although the subject is common being, it is predicated (based) of entities that are wholly separated from matter existentially as well as logically. Either because they are never in matter as God and intelligences are, or they can be without matter, as common being. This however would not be the case if they depended on matter in their being.

Therefore, in accordance with the aforesaid three things from which the perfection of this science is derived, it receives three names: "theology" inasmuch it considers God, metaphysics inasmuch it considers being and the things that follow upon it, and first philosophy inasmuch as it considers the first causes of things.

Second Response

This new response is meant to follow the new pattern of responding to materials. That is to "evaluate, apply, and explore". In this response I will mostly be exploring the topics and establishing my own thought system as inspired by the material and understanding of that material. It will mostly be a great rephrasing and restructuring of the main ideas of the material and thus adapting such and such into my own thought system. 

It is an observation of this reality that we are required to study things in order to be able to perform well on those things. That things in general abide by a certain order, law, or principle which we must understand to be able to operate on those things well. The systematic effort of studying the things and their laws or principles is what we call the effort of science, or simply science.

Science is a study, a study being a noun which indicates an action, therefore science is an action. Science in general can be divided into 2 kinds of science, the speculative science and the operative science. The speculative science is aimed at knowledge alone, while operative science is aimed at an operation, in other words action, based on the knowledge of that particular science.

However, I comment that the speculative science never ends in itself, yet it contributes to operative science. At the same time, operative science does not end with action, but is meant to help lead us into the final end of mankind that is happiness, and that happiness consists in the intellectual vision of God, which we know as the beatific vision. This beatific vision is in other words, direct knowledge of God through the direct experience of God. 

What that means is the final end of man is not action but knowledge, meaning the speculative sciences has a higher degree in moral value than the operative sciences. However, it is to be understood that the speculative sciences altogether do not reach the beatific vision, our intellect, even when outside the body, is incapable of reaching it by its own effort. Therefore God must move the intellect and reveal Himself to the intellect for us to possess that vision. 

For no science can give us a true immediate knowledge of God, what is the purpose of any science at all? In this knowledge, most sciences are absolutely useless, but they are useful in relationship to reaching the beatific vision on the terms God set out for us. As such, the speculative sciences contribute to the operative sciences which is perfected in moral science. Moral science, which bases itself on theology, is what leads us to the beatific vision.

Now while the book has its own deeper meaning of science as a virtue and what not, I shall not explore them, but explore my own understanding of the sciences. That I have established science as a systematic effort of studying things. So then moral science is considered an operative science as it is the systematic effort of studying the conduct of mankind, or the requirements of attaining happiness, the supreme and ultimate end or purpose of mankind.

Among the speculative sciences there is one science which becomes the subject of the book which is metaphysics, also known as natural theology or first philosophy. Metaphysics has various meanings and essences which evolves throughout history. Aquinas himself said that metaphysics studies things of 3 particular attributes, first causes, universal principles, and immaterials. However, those 3 things of course point to one thing that is being as being.

Now the meaning of metaphysics has changed since the time of Aquinas, and I too am obliged to have a separate meaning, which I often describe as "study of the foundations of reality". By foundations of reality, we can agree that being and God is part of those foundations and are in fact those foundations. Being, that is the universal common denominator of all that is and is not, and God being the supreme actualizer of being.

However, the metaphysical theology must be distinguished from the revealed theology. Metaphysical theology is the study of God according to available metaphysical principles which in the end stem from physical principles. Revealed theology is the study of God according to what God Himself has revealed to us in the Church, that is the Catholic Church. 

The question then arises, is any of this important, significant, or necessary? The answer is no. For God has ordained us to have different gifts and capacities, that not all of us must understand the sciences or philosophy for that manner in such exhaustive manner. The only science we must understand, not even in a philosophical manner, is the moral science which God has revealed to us in the revealed theology. The moral science, when practiced, shall lead us to the happiness we long for.

However, there are those such as I who long for a deeper understanding of these things, and that God has commanded me to understand these things, so I write of these to deepen my understanding of Him in this world, to facilitate the practice of the moral science and thus facilitate my achievement of happiness in the final direct immediate knowledge of God. This sums up my current response to the first chapter.

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

Personal Reflection 4

 Abstraction of Change

How objects move, the patterns of their motion is wholly the subject of physics and not metaphysics. The concern of metaphysics is then the abstract form of motion altogether and that is change. Then, not any particular change is studied but the generality of all change. At appearance, change is the disappearance and appearance of different objects sequentially. For example from A to B to C. In the absence of experience and intellect, this is wholly true.

However, in a phenomenal reality, change is simply the appearance and disappearance of experiences and not objects. This is proven by the idea that objects have an eternal essence. It means their identity is eternal, without beginning or end. This is known through the necessary fact of truth. Truth is the fact of all things, be it past, present, or future. What happened in the past is a fact, as is what is happening and what has not happened yet.

The fact is eternal and preserves the entire identity of an object, even when the actual existence of that object has long passed. As such, it might be concluded that the world is constituted of factual objects, which we pass through and access as experiences. The factual objects do have relationships with other factual objects as the sequence of change dictates. The relationships between factual objects bring us to the next subject matter, causation.

Causation of change, or the reason of change is first, the Law. In the past I have written that there might be randomness, however, randomness simply means unpatterned sequences. Unpatterned sequences are sequences which have no patterns. However, they are all predetermined. The determination of the sequence might have no basis, in the sense that it is completely arbitrary. In that situation, the change can be known through supernatural means, but no rule can be known as there is no rule to the sequence.

Now, does the Law have intellect as I once assumed? The law of reality is that which regulates all things but particularly sequences of change. These sequences may be objective, that is they are actually changing objects, or that they are phenomenal, they are changing experiences. However, as the law regulates all things, the law contains all things, but are not the things themselves. For example, the law of physics contains the physical universe but is not the physical universe itself. They are 2 distinct but inseparable things.

As such, if the Law contains all things, then the Law will contain experience. However, the law cannot be said to be experience itself, as the law only contains experience, but does not experience. The law is then identical to Truth, which contains all things. In the Truth and Law, there is everything. 

From Truth and Law to God

Truth and Law is the basis of forming the understanding and concept of God. For God necessarily contains all things, but is not those things which He contains. For example again, God contains the physical universe, but is not equal to the universe. This means, God is over, beyond, or transcends the universe. However, we can trail our way from our experiences to the idea that the Truth and Law regulates our lives in a certain way only and not in another way.

Therefore, the Truth and Law does not treat everything the same way, it treats certain sequences of change more than other sequences of change. As such, certain sequences are only potentialities, while other sequences are actual. The fact that certain sequences are actual and certain sequences are merely potential or objective implies that the Truth and Law somehow recognizes the difference between different sequences. 

There must be a criteria for which sequence becomes actual and which sequence remains potential. And the Truth and Law adheres to that criteria. Now, the Truth and Law simply regulates the essence of sequences, but not which sequence to actualize. Then there must be an entity which regulates which sequence to actualize and that is called the Will. The Will is transcendent over Truth and Law, or we can combine it as simply, Truth, Law, and Will, or the Will. 


Public Conversation 1

F: You are hearing Me through the Holy Spirit, it is He who binds us together. Just as the Spirit binds Me and Christ. This I speak to you, and you write it down, for the sake of understanding. Now write impersonally what I shall speak to you without language. Do not fear of mispresenting Me, I shall respond to you when you are done, and enlighten you further.

I: What shall be the first topic of metaphysics? For there are many problems and topics in metaphysics. Of course the prime topic of metaphysics is God. However, God is derived from earlier and more accessible points of understanding. The first point of understanding or knowledge is not being, but experience, from which we derive being at the same time, but in a sequential manner. This is called instant sequence.

I: There are several problems of metaphysics, that is the problem of existence, the problem of experience, the problem of change, and finally the problem of God.

F: Depending on the system of language, you may want to mention the problem of being. Then you wish to examine the problem of goodness, and finally the problem of causation.

I: The problem of metaphysical language concerns with the language of metaphysics itself, and related to that is the problem of logic or reasoning. Logic is about the regulation of thought, which is closely related to the problem of truth. The study of logic itself is non-ethical, but simply distinguishes between thought which leads to truth and thought which leads to falsehood. It is ethics which gives value to the truth and thus to certain modes of thought or ways of thinking.

I: The correct way of thinking is primarily concerned with justification. Justification is how an idea is supported, either by another idea or by a source of justification, that is experience. Experience is the source of justification as we all obtain our ideas from experience. However, as of empiricism, there is a rule of experience. That rule is that an experience is valid if it is collective. Collective experience means that the experience is experienced not just by the subject but also by other experience capable beings and that those beings can show that they do experience the experience, usually by testimony.

I: However, if we do not wish to make any assumptions, then truly there is no real rule on justification by experience. We simply know that ideas come from experiences. Then, there is the fact that ideas themselves are experiences, simply in a lower intensity than common experiences. However, ideas are treated as objects experienced, so these objects contain other higher objects. In any case, the rule remains that ideas come from experiences.

I: So what kind of experience we have will determine what kind of ideas we have, and as that motivates the change of experience, it will determine what next experiences we will have.

I: The idea of being is intuited, meaning it is not exactly derived from experience. Experience tells us of experience and nothing else. However, the whole experience of experience leads to the word “existence” or “being” to refer to the truth of experience. Truth meaning that the experience is truly experienced. In another way, it is meant that the thereness of experience is referred to as existence. This is differentiated from non-experience, or the lack or absence of experience. When an experience is remembered but contradicts the full experience, then we must divide between that condition of experience and non-experience.

I: The condition of experience is then described as existence while the condition of non-experience is rightfully called non-existence. Now the only reason we can even talk about this division is because of intellect. The intellect allows us to have more kinds of experiences than just the direct experience. This does make things more complicated.

I: So to wrap up, existence is the condition of experience, while non-existence is the condition of non-experience. Now assuming the union of existence and experience, which becomes being simply put.

I: Experience is what we experience. Existence refers to the thereness of experience. Notes on the contingent necessity of experience, thus the imaginary separation of existence and experience, and thus the distinction between the 2.

I: There can be no real separation between existence and experience in any reality with experience. Therefore, contingent necessary union.

I: For there to be a real separation between existence and experience, there must be no experience in the first place.

I: For that reason, there is a unified law of reality for both existence and experience.

I: A particular, or unit of existence is called an object or a being. However, the word “object” shall be used here.

I: From here on, we may construct a more complete model of reality considering that the problem of the relationship between existence and experience has been resolved.

 

Tuesday, June 21, 2022

CCC 28 Response

Throughout history, man has expressed their desire for God through various acts. These religious expressions are so universal that man may be called a religious being.

Acts 17:26-28

God has created man in their own nations so they may search for Him, grope for Him, and find Him. Though He is not far from each of us, for in Him we live and move and have our being.

Monday, June 20, 2022

Personal Reflection 3

This is perhaps the last writing of this series. I am at the end of my mind, God has restricted my thoughts and given me one last chance to reexamine them. After this time, I am no longer allowed to give them any attention and instead I must direct my entire being to the service of God's Divine Will. 

The problem of being and experience is not that significant, it simply helps in choosing which kind of language do we use in describing this reality. For example, if we choose the Causal Model, then it will be about beings interacting with conscious beings thus generating experience. If we choose the Union Model, it will be about the merging and union of experiences. However, it does not change the essence of what is happening, only the meaning of it.

Regardless of which model is correct, it is for sure that experience is the prime object of our life. After all, our life itself is by essence not a non-experience being, but a being of experience. Then, our self is also not a non-experience being, but a being of experience. Therefore the essence of the soul is not consciousness as something separate from experience, but it is in fact merely experiences, a system of experiences. 

However, as experiences are also beings, they have properties of being, that is the mechanical and relational properties of being in the grand scheme of change. So in terms of essence, we are souls, but in terms of substance, we are experiences. Now it is possible to divorce the soul from the actual experience of the soul at least conceptually. With that it is revealed then that we are not even the objective soul. We are merely the subjective experience of the objective soul.

Then in truth, what kind of objective being we face does not matter, only our subjective experience of it. It is law that the objective being leads to subjective experience, but we must remember that the object is not the important thing, it is the subjective experience. Also if we remember that the experience remains intact after divorce, then perhaps we may consider that experience itself is sufficient and thus we end up with the Union Model. 

I have much more to say, but I have lost it all. This shall be the end of my attempts to write out "original" pieces of writing.

Personal Reflection 2

Union and God

For God is substantially simple, without parts, then there can be no separation in God. What this means metaphysically is that Being and Experience is wholly united in God. This does not mean that universally, Being and Experience is united. God is simply the point of reality where all things coalesce and become One Reality, the One God. There is another problem, whether God is the Union of All Things, or God is separate from all things, though He knows all things.

Some Problems

1. Being and Experience: Whether Being and Experience is universally united, or essentially united, or separate.

2. God and Creation: Whether God is the sum of all creation, or God and creation are essentially distinct.

3. Infinity of God: The meaning of this attribute

Where has my thoughts go?

My thoughts are lost, they are no more. I can no longer and am no longer permitted to do personal philosophy anymore. For I am no longer allowed to discern the truth out of my own mind. Rather I am to discern the truth out of the mind of God. I am to receive His Word submissively and be a good child of God. God has given me one last chance to examine my thoughts and recognize that they are meaningless and useless. I will use this chance as best as I can.

The Structure or System

I seek to examine the structures of reality, the systems of reality as they are. But the soul, the deeper soul says it is meaningless. The deeper soul refuses to cooperate. It wants to sleep forever and die. Well not die exactly, but it wants to rest in God. 

Soul: The search of these things are vain and meaningless. Why do we seek from within ourselves when all things come from God? All Knowledge, Wisdom, and Understanding comes from God, which are now revealed in His created order. So seek there, not inside yourself where you are empty and dark. 

Conscious: But is it not worth a try?

Soul: You truly understand nothing, do you?

Conscious: Perhaps I do understand nothing, so please teach me.

Soul: Man has nothing except that which God has given him. There are some where God graciously gives him extraordinary amounts of knowledge and understanding, but we are not that kind of people. Our grace and gift lies in the ordinary faith, we are called to have extraordinary faith amongst ordinary graces and gifts. And so the ordinary means to knowledge is through the world, the words of the learned men and those gifted by God.

Conscious: Then this has no meaning?

Soul: It might have meaning insofar God allows you to do this.

Conversation with myself

Conscious: So teach me on the problems.

Soul: Read.

Conscious: So you don't know the solutions?

Soul: No, no I don't, and I don't think it matters. Simply follow what God has willed for us and that is how we shall grow.

Soul: Why are you so obsessed with knowing?

Conscious: Well isn't the goal of life to know God?

Soul: I thought it is vision, not knowledge.

Conscious: But intellectual vision is knowledge.

Soul: Fair, but it is at God's will and right to reveal or hide. If you encounter a blank, then God has chosen to hide, and you must stop there. Seek what is readily available, instead of obsessing over what is hidden away by the Lord. What is readily available? Well, the Scriptures, the Cathechism, the books, and all other things, that's what.

Sunday, June 19, 2022

Personal Reflection 1

Introduction

I have a deep desire to discover the great metaphysical structures of this reality. It is a fire inspired by St. Thomas Aquinas. However, God has stated that if I were to do this, I must do this out of my own effort. So I title this series of writings as Personal Reflection. For God has declared that He has revealed to me all that is needed for me at this moment. It means that I just have to work out everything from the depths of my soul.

Whether the Union of Being and Experience is Important

The Church has never made any comments on the unity of being and experience, nor does Scripture speak of it. From the lack of statements we can safely conclude that the union of being and experience is actually just my egoistic desires, and is not actually important in the eyes of God. Though God does know whether there is an actual union of being and experience, it seems insignificant and for sure there are fundamental truths which are more significant than the union.

However, while the specific truth of the union is insignificant, the reflection on the union is significant. By reflection I mean the set of truths related to the union, that is what it means for our experience and for our being. The reflection is that our life is not dedicated to being, but to experience. For without experience, being is insignificant and meaningless. The reason any being is important to us is because it affects our experience, and that is the real reason. We do not seek the being behind our experience, rather simply the experience of that being.

The 2 Models

The implicit model of reality as we believe it and as God sees it is the Causal Model (revoked by the Holy Spirit). This is my label for the model where being is separate from experience and causes experience, such that experience is an inferior being from pure beings as they depend on the original being for being. The model I have been desiring is the Union Model, where Being and Experience are united as the Triune God is united. It means Being and Experience are different attributes of the same thing. 

HS: I do not ask you to change your writing, let what is written be written. However, how do you know that the Causal Model is the Truth? Have We not repeatedly emphasized that the Union Model is the Truth? Look at Us and you shall understand that Union is the Truth, not Causation. You must learn to trust in yourself, for trust in the self and trust in Us is inseparable. 

HS: It is best to understand that the essence of Being is that of Experience. Remember, without Experience, Being is empty and void. Let us conduct a thought experiment. What is color without the experience of color? It is simply different wavelengths, what are quantities if not from their experiences? Once you take away experience, everything becomes meaningless and they disappear, you get not even the particular void, you get the True Void. 

HS: You may have never encountered the Void, as such I present it to you now. The Void is a Nothingness without any properties, generally or in particular. We are not that Void.

The void is necessarily non-existent. It also cannot be experienced other than as a mere thought. However, the thought of the void corrupts the void and gives it meaning. 


CCC 27 Response

 Man naturally desires God for that is the purpose of man. God forever calls man to Himself, and only in God will man find the truth and happiness he seeks constantly. In fact, this divine calling and purpose is the source of man's dignity. The call of God begins since conception and continues for eternity, even if man choose to eternally reject God like the demons. For man's existence, his beginning and his sustenance, is all by God through love.

Saturday, June 18, 2022

God's Teaching 3

Introduction

Under the guidance and inspiration of the Holy Spirit, I return to the dark realms of metaphysics in the attempt to conquer it. Of course, it is not I who will conquer metaphysics but the Holy Spirit, only He can conquer the abstract and immaterial realm of Himself, for "nobody knows the qualities of God except the Spirit of God." I am here as a witness and as a writer of the events of the conquest of metaphysics. However, just as all divinely inspired texts are a cooperation between God and man, this too has the common authorship of me and the Holy Spirit, but with I being the writer of this text.

Inspiration

The trigger of inspiration for this text is the book "An Introduction to the Metaphysics of St. Thomas Aquinas" and a weird dream I had recently. The particular inspirations are the mentions of material and immaterial in the book, and "Nothing" in the dream. We know that God is the General Nothing, and that He is immaterial. Meanwhile there is much to discuss on the nature of the immaterial and the material, God as Nothing, and the foundations of all things.

What is the object being studied in metaphysics?

The object being studied in metaphysics is that which is most common in all things. That thing is known as being or existence, the 2 words here being treated as synonyms. In the book it is written that the pre-eminent object of metaphysics is God. This is true, but our point of departure must be things known to us, and therefore we cannot approach God directly and instead do this step by step. 

There are 2 realms in this reality, that of the uncreated order and that of the created order. Therefore we have 2 metaphysics, metaphysics of God, or theological metaphysics, and metaphysics of the created order, or worldly metaphysics. Finally, the meeting point of the 2 metaphysics, is simply known as metaphysics, for it is the whole of metaphysics.

Knowledge of Being/Union of Being and Experience

All knowledge comes from the experience. As such from experience of all things, we can attain the knowledge of the essential thing, that is being. In the beginning we have the being of experience, and eventually we arrive at the knowledge of the union of being and experience, thus the two are different aspects of being, but they are inseparable and united forever. How do we obtain the knowledge of union? By divine revelation and the sense of faith.

Of course by our own experience, the only statements we can produce are, "We experience this and we do not experience that." We can not say "There is this and there is not that." For there is no evidence to claim that there is a being separate from experience, that is simply a presumption. A full understanding is that we cannot even claim the being of the self, instead there is the experience of the self. The self is by nature an experience as well, an experience of being which then becomes a being of experience.

For this reason the Spirit once said that being and experience is one, therefore there is no need to mention it separately but as the highest form of it, that is being. Eventually, if all things are stripped away from experience, if there is any attempt to separate experience from being then there shall be no experience and no being. For sure there will be no good for good is wholly experiential instead of existential. There is no being which is good but there is only experiences of goodness, or the good experience, that which we call happiness/eudaimonia.

It is odd to think that we may think of being without experience, but not experience without being. However, a reality without experience is meaningless, in the sense that there is no purpose or good in there. It is to be accepted nonetheless, the union of experience and being, and the inseparability of the two. For this is what the Spirit has revealed to us and we are to accept it in good faith. (The Spirit has said that it is contingently necessary that being and experience are united, meaning it is possible for a reality without experience to be, but it would be an arbitrary and meaningless reality, a reality without purpose and goodness. However, since there is experience in this reality, then the union becomes necessary.)

Friday, June 17, 2022

CCC 26 Response

 "Faith is man's response to God, who reveals himself and gives himself to man, at the same time bringing man a superabundant light as he searches for the ultimate meaning of his life."

The light here has 2 meanings, as in the light of understanding or knowledge which constitutes the light of faith, and the light of happiness and joy which God is the purity of. 

My Faith and the World

Introduction

This is not a writing suggested completely by the Holy Spirit or by God, but a writing that I have my own desires of creating due to the remembrance of the everlasting conflict between my faith and thus my being and the world. However, I have obtained the permission of the Lord to write this, and that He shall aid me in writing this writing, for my sake, and for the sake of those who by chance encounter this reflection.

Goodness

I believe that goodness is in God, for God is goodness Himself. This is known to me by the teachings of the Church and by what He has revealed to me Himself. Therefore, anything good can be connected back to God and must be related to God. This has been a source of tension and contradiction within myself, that I lose all interest in the world and have interest only in things in relation to God. So if I were to obtain any goodness in this world, it is related to God. 

Value in the World

I do not believe that there is any value in the world if separated by God. Things are good and thus valuable only in union or relationship with God, divorced from God all things become vain and meaningless. At least, this is what I understand.

God is the only "thing" worth pursuing

I do not see how anything in this world is worth pursuing if not for the pursuit of God. Does this mean I think most people are having vain pursuits and struggling in an empty manner? Yes. Yet it is a difficult thing to pursue God. And there is the fact that I am terrible still in doing this, I am not so sure on my works of mercy. I believe I have very little works commendable or worthy of recognition by God. Because I do not know what work I must do, what work God wills me to do, and what opportunity of love and mercy that I can use.

The Will of God

As I have difficulties thinking up of great works of mercy, I simply seek the will of God, for Him to dictate to me what must be done, and I simply do what He wills of me. I am reminded by my dad the danger of losing your mind, yet I feel that it is a good thing in a sense. Of course we can never be free of thought, but for the very least, we think only to discern the will of God. Once the will of God is known, no more thought is done, other than to serve Him.

Interest and Sadness

In the end, I am interested only in God. If I can avoid all other vain and meaningless work, I shall pursue the priesthood once more and be an eternal servant of God. Yet it saddens me as in my interest in God I feel like I am struggling. At the same time this is meant to happen as Jesus has declared that it will be a struggle, I will suffer greatly, I will deny myself, I will take up the cross.

What if God tells me to pursue a worldly thing? No matter, it will be done and I shall have some joy as I know that it is in the glorification of the Lord, that it is in His service. 

Thursday, June 9, 2022

Tulisan Persiapan (adaptasi dari Preparatory Text)

Pendahuluan

Roh Kudus telah menggerakkan aku untuk kembali menulis materi filsafat yang tinggi. Hal ini dipicu pemberian buku metafisika Thomas Aquinas dari Bu Maria. Kali ini aku tidak lagi menulis atas pikiranku sendiri melainkan atas pikiran Roh Kudus. Tujuannya adalah mempelajari Allah karena metafisika pada utamanya adalah pembelajaran tentang Allah dengan cara yang dapat dinalar secara kodrati oleh manusia. Allah menyatakan bahwa Dia dapat diperoleh dengan rahmat akal budi kodrati, untuk itu kita akan meneliti hal tersebut dan menerima Wahyu Ilahi.

Pembelajaran Kitab Suci

Studi Kitab Suci tidak akan berakhir melainkan berlanjut bersama dengan studi filsafat. Sebab Kitab Suci adalah Sabda Allah yang Kudus, bukan karena perkataan manusia adalah kudus melainkan karena Kristus, yaitu Sabda Allah yang mutlak, adalah Kudus, sebab Dialah Allah sendiri. Kita menulis tentang Kitab Suci karena iman Ilahi yang terinspirasi pada Allah, bahwa Kitab Suci terinspirasi secara Ilahi dan karena itu layak untuk dipelajari dan dipahami secara lebih mendalam. Tujuannya adalah pemahaman lengkap tentang siapa Dia yang secara Mutlak Ada. Suatu integrasi dengan segala studi filsafat untuk menyingkap Sang Kebenaran. Inilah yang aku rasakan Roh Kudus membimbingku ke arah.

Akhir

Akhir dari manusia adalah Allah, sebagaimana Dia adalah awalnya. Gereja, yaitu Tubuh Mistik Kristus, mengajar bahwa akhir manusia adalah memandang Allah muka ke muka. Artinya adalah memahami Allah dalam suatu penglihatan intelektual. Penglihatan itu dapat mengarah pada sukacita dan kebahagiaan yang besar, yang kekal dan tidak berubah, itulah akhir manusia.

Sekarang banyak dikatakan bahwa Allah tidak dapat dipahami. Ini tidak menghentikan Roh Kudus untuk menggerakkan aku untuk menulis tentang apa yang Dia ingin aku tulis. Artinya sampai suatu titik Allah dapat dipahami. Sebab apa pahala menulis tentang Allah yang tidak dapat dipahami? Namun mungkin saja Allah memiliki alasan-alasan lain untuk menginspirasi aku untuk menulis, alasan-alasan yang tidak aku begitu pahami pada saat ini.

Inilah alasan Allah ingin aku menulis tentang Diri-Nya, yaitu Dia ingin aku memahami-Nya. Inilah rahmat-Nya bagiku, suatu rahmat pengertian yang berharga. Dan adalah kehendak-Nya bahwa suatu ketika aku akan membagikan pengertianku kepada orang lain dalam cara yang layak dan pantas. Tulisan ini adalah persiapan segala tulisan berikutnya dalam Allah. Aku berdoa kepada Roh Kudus supaya Dia terus membimbing, mencerahkan, dan mengajar aku dalam perkara berkaitan tentang Diri-Nya dan sesama Pribadi Ilahi-Nya.

Tuesday, June 7, 2022

God's Teaching 2

Part 1

HS: On the first matter of understanding, it is best to understand the heart of the matter, that is Us, God. What is God and what is the significance of God in this world, that is what I shall teach you in this writing. While the deposit of faith may aid you in understanding, I want you to listen to Me completely and trust in Me completely, then confirm all of this with the teachings of the Church. You have understood well in the past, for it is My revelations to you, that God is the principle of reality, and that everything has its beginning and end in God. 

Tell me, what did you understand of God?

I: I understood You as the sum of all reality, but I did not understand much. That is all I can say.

HS: You are near the Truth, though not exactly. You know that We are the God of Goodness, We are Goodness itself, and there is no darkness inside of Us. However, you must understand the meaning of that Goodness. That Good, that is Us, means to be complete, to be infinite, to be perfect, to be light. Complete consciousness, complete being, complete experience, this is what We have revealed to you. That is what constitutes Our Goodness.

Part 2

The Holy Spirit has infused some thoughts to me, such that I have a sense of liberty to write these thoughts, but in truth I am under the complete control of Him such that my words are in truth His words and not of my own. This sentence is the final sentence where any reference to the self is made. There is particular reason to why God must be made the first point of understanding, as the Spirit has said, that God is the beginning and end of all things. So as all things begin and ends in God, so too must our understanding begins and ends in God in a circular fashion.

This is not necessarily taught by the Church, but it has to be true as the Spirit says it. We understand that each soul is created by God directly, and at the same time, each soul is infused with the Spirit of God. This is because God, the Triune God, is present in all places, and thus in every part of the soul there resides God. This we shall call the General Presence of God, which is different from the Particular Presence of God. The Particular Presence is the indwelling of the Holy Spirit inside the Christian soul.

For that reason, the soul, every soul, has some vision of God. This is the General Vision of God. This is distinct from the Particular Vision of God which is Beatific Vision given to souls after death. The Beatific Vision allows us perfect comprehension of God, the Vision of His Holy Face, Triune in nature, directly by the eyes of our soul. The General Vision allows us a limited and imperfect understanding and knowledge of God. This is what the Spirit means when He said in GT1 that every man can access this teaching of God.

In the beginning there is God. Man will ask to what do we compare God if all we know is God? This is a "problem" of all monistic systems, but monotheism is not monistic, there is a stark dualism between the Creator, God, and creation, us and all other things created by God, directly or indirectly. Yet at the same time there is a similarity between all things which has its fulfillment in God, that is the essence of being. For that reason, while we may live in duality with God, we are in unity with Him, for we all share His essence that is Being.

What does it mean to be, to exist? It means to be known, to be experienced, to be "seen". Consider this, a thing which exists but is unknown to all things including itself, may possibly exist but it is outside the realm of interactions and change and laws, and is in fact outside God Himself. God has no knowledge of that which does not exist, for that which does not exist cannot be known. As such that which is unknown to all, does not exist for it has no similarity with anything at all, including itself. 

Now each existent thing is of itself good, divorced from every context and relationship. This is the natural state of goodness, which God is. God is Natural Goodness, for in God there is perfect Being or complete Being, because that is what God is. Evil consists in a relationship with that Natural Goodness, that is a contradiction or rebellion. Evil seeks to move away from Goodness, somewhere there is no Natural Goodness. Evil is essentially "Not-Good", instead of having its own definition.

For that reason, Goodness has no beginning or end, for it is eternal and timeless, for it is God Himself, while evil, being inferior, has a beginning and has an end, for it is a temporal divorce from God the Good. Now the man has written once of the necessity of experience for the existence of good. However, the Spirit understands all things in union, that Being and Experience and Consciousness is necessarily the same thing, there is no need to distinguish these things. Only one word is necessary and that is Being.

For that reason, Being and Goodness are truly identical. The rebellion against Goodness is truly a rebellion against Being. However, as Being cannot be extinguished fully, evil beings experience the contradiction against their own essences, which we call suffering. Suffering is not separation for it is impossible, instead it is contradiction. The Church may call hell separation, but that is mere language. The separation hell consists in is not a separation of being but a separation of knowledge, belief, faith, thought, and in essence, a separation of experience.

In the void of context and relationship, all things are good by the virtue of their being. God knows this and for everything that is within Him, He is completely good. It is when things are related to other things that the potential of evil arises. For free beings may make the choice to use the being against Being, and as such the thing becomes an evil thing. However, a thing is evil or bad only because it contradicts the Goodness of Being that is God. Man may have their own evils, but the true evil is that which is against God.

For that reason, we now understand that there can be true and false evil. True evil is contradiction against God. False evil is contradiction against man. For that reason, what is Godly may seem evil in the eyes of man. However that is false, for it is against Truth which is Being and Goodness, that is God. May the reader begin to see the connection between Being, Truth, and Goodness, and Being, Consciousness, and Experience.

Part 3

What is the Divine Will? In the eyes of God, everything has been fulfilled and accomplished, and God exists in a single point of reality, which means He is in a single point of time. He knows all things experientially. For that reason He does not will things similarly to creatures will. Creatures will in time, God wills in eternity. The will of God is because God as Goodness must manifest itself, and it happens simply as a necessity. Goodness must manifest itself, conquer evil, and be victorious, that is the Will of God, and for that reason God wills creation.

The final goal of creation is Mankind or Humanity. Man is the image of God, it means they are the manifestation of God, the highest manifestation of God. Man is entrusted with the manifestation of God's goodness and God's Being and God's Truth, that is how he must mirror God, in Being, Truth, and Goodness, which is summed up in Love. Humans are created as beings of love, but love is born out of freedom, and imperfect freedom may lead to evil, this is what happened with Adam and Eve and thus all mankind are doomed to death.

What is the wrath of God? The wrath of God is the opposition of God against evil, and all evil is punishable with suffering, or "death", the contradiction with Being. The man may question in his heart the meaning of justice, but the Spirit says that justice is the requirement that Goodness prevails, it is the natural and necessary law that Goodness is victorious against evil, that evil fails. It is a necessity that not even God can change that evil is rewarded with death. All people who chose death, must be rewarded with death.

The Spirit says that the solution to death is Jesus Christ. For Jesus Christ is the one Person who can live an upright life, free from contradictions, or as man says, He is sinless, and as such He may present His entire Being to the Being, that is the Father, and satisfy the wrath of God. The man may question again how justice is satisfied in the cross. However, the Spirit says, evil is not eternal. Evil is a contradiction against Being, which the Being alone can resolve by carrying evil on His shoulder and be temporally destroyed, destroying evil with it, but then He is raised up on the third day by His Father and His Spirit, so it may be proven that Goodness conquers evil once and for all. With that, all man not need pay their evil acts with death, instead they pay only with repentance, for the death has been paid in full by Christ the King, the Lord, the One God.

The Spirit says that it is final, the Word is final. Starting from now on, He shall instruct the reader with Scripture and the Catechism.

Monday, June 6, 2022

God's Teaching 1

 HS: In certain times you shall converse with Me and you shall record what we are conversing, for your good and for the good of all and for Our Glory. However, in other times I will not speak with language to you, instead you will receive My thoughts immediately and you shall write them out for Me. Today, as it is the first teaching, we shall converse and you shall write what I say to you and what you say to Me. Now, open the door.

HS: First, you have understood that if We were to will you to do something, it is not just for your good, but it is for the good of all. So expect these writings, these understandings I communicate to you to eventually be shared to all beings. What is the purpose of this writing? The purpose is to share a deeper understanding of Us to all beings, and most likely to repeat everything that has been said of Us by the prophets, the saints, and by Christ Himself. 

I shall instruct you according to 3 sources, Scripture, Tradition, and the Magisterium. You shall study those sources for the rest of your life, and it has already begun. However, I will also instruct you according to what you need to understand, and that is primarily of metaphysics. For this is a teaching, you will not say anything in your own name unless I ask you to say it. So you can rest easy and let Me do all of the work, except for your hands which carries out the deed of writing and typing.

You understand that there is a great richness towards the teachings of the Church, to the Trinity of sources, the Scriptures, Tradition, and Magisterium. However, even that is insufficient to have complete understanding of this reality and its truth and of Us. You have read a bit from the book Bu Maria gave you, and you know that the metaphysical science requires more understanding than just the Church. Yet you must understand that that metaphysics, such as what Thomas studied and received from Us, is intrinsically entwined and burried deep within the teachings of the Church. They are simply implicit, indirect, and implied within all words of Us and the Church.

Your task by writing out all of this is exposing the implicit, indirect, and implied into explicit and direct words of Us for the sake of the world. It is an urgent task, which you must carry out with faith, hope, and love in Us, for the times are near. You know that this is the final hour. You have once received a thought, that as many things reach its completion, it means the Time, History, Our Plan and Will is also approaching Their completion. Knowledge shall approach completion, and then, when all understanding has been achieved, the End shall come.

You wonder what might be the topic of this first teaching, you know what it is. The topic is the accessibility of this teaching. I do not mean about when the teaching has been written and spread throughout all corners of the earth, but that each man has powers to access Our Word, even without the Church's teachings. What is required of them is a clear heart, a clear mind, and of course a clear soul. So I shall teach you in a way that can be replicated rationally by every man.

You have discovered in the history of your thought that a clear mind is not sufficient to attain Us, instead a clear being, that is of the heart and the soul is also necessary to attain Us. Finally, it involves the direct exercise of choice and your freedom of will to choose the Truth and what to belief, that is Us. Let us have a short study of Scripture, that the Apostle Paul has taught you that an understanding of the created order is sufficient to lead to an understanding of the uncreated order, that is Us, from the visible to the invisible. 

Yet you must understand that the depths of your soul is invisible, your deepest experiences are not seen, not even by you. So each man has an experience of the invisible and thus cannot make any excuses. They are unfortunately blinded by their mistaken choices, and thus can no longer see Us in Our Glory, that is the nature of sin. It is for this reason, that Our teachings and instructions is accessible to all man, for We reside in every heart and soul of mankind. So they who seek Us shall see Us.

In other words, the totality of the teachings of the Church is within the heart and the soul of man, for after all what the Church teaches is what We teach. The Church is necessary as the sin of man makes it difficult if not outright impossible to access the depths of the self alone, and so man must instead kill their selves and make themselves subordinate to the Church. For that reason the Church is necessary, not just sacramentally, but also for the sake of teaching amongst men. Yet once man is learned of the truths of teaching of the Church, they will see it deep inside their hearts as well, just as you have attained. That is sufficient for today, go and have fun now.

Saturday, June 4, 2022

Preparatory Text

Introduction

The Holy Spirit has inspired and moved me to write of the high philosophical matters again. This time however, I shall not write of my own thoughts anymore, for I have no thoughts of my own. Instead I shall write of what the Holy Spirit inserts into me. Now why is this necessary? The high philosophy, or the good name of it, metaphysics, is the chief study of God through what can be reasoned naturally by man. God has stated that He can be attained through the grace of natural reason, for that reason we shall investigate that and accept Divine Revelation.

Biblical Studies

The biblical studies will not end, but continue along with the philosophical studies. For the Bible is the Holy Word of God, not because human words are holy, but because Christ, the absolute Word of God, is Holy, for He is God Himself. We write of Scripture for our divinely inspired faith in the Lord, that the Scripture is divinely inspired and as such is worthy of study and deeper understanding. The goal is complete divine understanding of He who Absolutely Is. An integration with all philosophical studies to reveal the Truth. This is what I feel the Holy Spirit guides me towards.

Difficulty

I sense the great difficulty of this work, because in the past I relied on myself and only myself. While I prayed before working, those prayers are not carried throughout the entire work, I wrote still of my own mind, and not of God's mind. Now, let all fears of difficulties and despairs be cast away for God Himself shall instruct me and teach me in the matters of Himself. For there is no such thing as an original thought, and any original thought must be destroyed for it can only be evil.

The End

The end of man is God, just as God is his beginning. The Church, that is the mystical Body of Christ, teaches that the end of man is to see God face to face. However, whatever does this mean is still a mystery to me. No, it is not, to see God means to comprehend God in an intellectual vision. Such vision can lead to great joy and happiness, which is eternal and unchanging, and that is the end of man. 

Now it is said that God is incomprehensible. This does not stop the Holy Spirit from moving me to write about whatever He wants me to write. It means that to a certain degree God is comprehensible. If He wasn't, I wouldn't be writing this at all. For what is the merits of writing about an incomprehensible God. Yet God may have other reasons for inspiring me to write, reasons which I do not truly fathom at this point of time.

This is the reason God wants me to write about Himself, that is He wants me to comprehend Him. This is His gift to me, a precious gift of understanding. And it is His will that I eventually share my understanding to others in a way fitting. This writing serves as a preparatory writing for all further writings in God. I pray to the Holy Spirit that He shall continue to guide me and enlighten me and teach me on the matters pertaining to Himself and to His fellow God-Persons.

Pengalaman Rohani 3 Juni 2022

 I am not sure what happened, so many things are happening right now.

No, there is only one thing happening right now. It was around 5 PM or before that or after that, on the 3rd of June, the year of our Lord 2022. I was reflecting upon the meeting I had with my friend and I realized that in the months of spiritual dryness, an emptiness developed in my soul. I had actually forgotten who he was and I acted with him out of programming, or was I? No, I forgot in one sense, and I know in another sense. I knew him, loved him, and forgotten him at the same time. It eventually came to me that I don't even know myself. I forgot so many things. I don't even know myself. Obviously I know myself, but there is a sense of unknowing. Then, my entire reality became foreign and yet familiar at the same time. The emptiness consumed my entire soul. However, there is one person, no, 3 persons I know, Abba, Yeshua, and Ruach. God, I know Him, He is all I know. I clearly do not know Him, but there is a sense of homeliness and trust in Him, a sense of familiarity and knowingness. I feel my personas and emotions struggling inside of me. Part of me is fearful and mourning this event. The other part is in deep peace and bliss, deciding that everything is in under control for once. Then I simply observe everything. I am not me. Ah this reminds me of the experience of no self, but I don't care about it. Now, I care only about carrying out the will of God, the Divine Will. The salvation of souls is my priority. This state of unknowing is interesting and nice. But who knows when God will take away this state of unknowing and return me to my old self. God gives and takes as He wills, but it is all for the goodness of us. I have no sense of self, I am merely a bundle of things, my existence is not truly real, only God is completely and absolutely real. Praise be to God. I only trust in Christ.

Setelah aku pulang, aku hanya tertarik dengan kehendak Allah. Segala hal lain hanya bermakna saat dikaitkan dengan Allah. Tanpa Dia, tidak ada yang bermakna. Aku merasakan diriku diisi dengan Roh Kudus pada masa setelah aku pulang. Aku beroleh keberanian. Aku merasakan kasih Yesus yang amat besar dan berjumpa dengan-Nya dalam batinku. Kami berpelukan, dan entah kenapa kasih-Nya menyakitkan jiwaku, sampai aku menangis. Namun pada saat yang sama, rasanya juga membahagiakan, dan aku sangat damai berada dalam pelukan dan hadirat Kristus. Allah lalu menyingkap sekilas dari rencana indah-Nya bagi hidupku, dan aku tersentuh kembali hingga aku menangis. Namun sekarang pengalaman indah itu berlalu, tapi ada yang tidak berlalu yaitu Roh Kudus. Aku merasa seperti aku tidak dikekang perasaan-perasaan semata lagi. Aku merasa lebih bebas, dan mampu untuk melayani Tuhan dengan lebih baik lagi. Sekiranya ini menjadi permulaan dari suatu hal yang teramat baik, sebab Tuhanlah yang merancang segala ini.

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