Personal Reflection 2

Union and God

For God is substantially simple, without parts, then there can be no separation in God. What this means metaphysically is that Being and Experience is wholly united in God. This does not mean that universally, Being and Experience is united. God is simply the point of reality where all things coalesce and become One Reality, the One God. There is another problem, whether God is the Union of All Things, or God is separate from all things, though He knows all things.

Some Problems

1. Being and Experience: Whether Being and Experience is universally united, or essentially united, or separate.

2. God and Creation: Whether God is the sum of all creation, or God and creation are essentially distinct.

3. Infinity of God: The meaning of this attribute

Where has my thoughts go?

My thoughts are lost, they are no more. I can no longer and am no longer permitted to do personal philosophy anymore. For I am no longer allowed to discern the truth out of my own mind. Rather I am to discern the truth out of the mind of God. I am to receive His Word submissively and be a good child of God. God has given me one last chance to examine my thoughts and recognize that they are meaningless and useless. I will use this chance as best as I can.

The Structure or System

I seek to examine the structures of reality, the systems of reality as they are. But the soul, the deeper soul says it is meaningless. The deeper soul refuses to cooperate. It wants to sleep forever and die. Well not die exactly, but it wants to rest in God. 

Soul: The search of these things are vain and meaningless. Why do we seek from within ourselves when all things come from God? All Knowledge, Wisdom, and Understanding comes from God, which are now revealed in His created order. So seek there, not inside yourself where you are empty and dark. 

Conscious: But is it not worth a try?

Soul: You truly understand nothing, do you?

Conscious: Perhaps I do understand nothing, so please teach me.

Soul: Man has nothing except that which God has given him. There are some where God graciously gives him extraordinary amounts of knowledge and understanding, but we are not that kind of people. Our grace and gift lies in the ordinary faith, we are called to have extraordinary faith amongst ordinary graces and gifts. And so the ordinary means to knowledge is through the world, the words of the learned men and those gifted by God.

Conscious: Then this has no meaning?

Soul: It might have meaning insofar God allows you to do this.

Conversation with myself

Conscious: So teach me on the problems.

Soul: Read.

Conscious: So you don't know the solutions?

Soul: No, no I don't, and I don't think it matters. Simply follow what God has willed for us and that is how we shall grow.

Soul: Why are you so obsessed with knowing?

Conscious: Well isn't the goal of life to know God?

Soul: I thought it is vision, not knowledge.

Conscious: But intellectual vision is knowledge.

Soul: Fair, but it is at God's will and right to reveal or hide. If you encounter a blank, then God has chosen to hide, and you must stop there. Seek what is readily available, instead of obsessing over what is hidden away by the Lord. What is readily available? Well, the Scriptures, the Cathechism, the books, and all other things, that's what.