Personal Reflection 8

I was ordained by God to write before 5 AM, as at 5 AM I shall pray the Rosary. The demonic attacks are indeed powerful. They seduce me into the heretical ideas of the New Age, and I have a feeling that PH might be related to that. Yet God ordains me to do PH once the time is right, that is once I can discipline myself on the Rosary. At the same time, I feel that there might be a truth hidden by God, for our sake. Yet my soul screams, "For sure there has to be a way to reconcile the 2 ideas, the 2 truths."

Yet what if one of them is false and the other is true. And what if I stand on the wrong side of history? Then I would be condemned sure and through. And I again attest that I have no way of knowing that I am wrong. But all I need is faith and love for God, and a great hope for the return of Jesus Christ, not just Christ, but Jesus Christ. I shall ask my aunt about the things I have seen. Now it is clear to me that what they call the Great Solar Flash, I call the Illumination of Conscience. It seems satan is again mixing error with truth and deceiving many. Yet how much are deceived and how much are on the right path? We cannot judge for we do not even know the minds of men so how can we know their hearts? Only God can judge.

If the prophecies are correct, then in just a short time (relatively speaking) all men shall know that Jesus is Christ and God. There will be mass confusion and chaos, and I am sure there will be lies spread amongst men to protect their false beliefs. Those who are faithful to God will attest to what they have seen, the crucified Lord. Now that I understand that faith, hope, and love are all that is necessary, then is it still necessary to ask my aunt? Yet perhaps I can know a different perspective if I know what my aunt thinks about all of this.

I trust in Christ our Lord, that He shall protect me from all heresies. But the question has been gnawing at me since forever. Just, what if there are truths other than what the Church teaches? If there is, what does this all mean?

5.22

I prayed, I prayed before I wrote. If this is what led me to this, then I can truly trust only in God now. I feel terrible, as if a terrible cloud of evil has descended upon me.